Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Dear Blog,
I'm feeling very very upset now. Why are things going into such opposite directions. It is as if everything is against me now. i had 2 wishes this year. Just 2. I've already lost one and up to now, i'm still quite clueless on how to react to it. The other..dont you think its great when u can go out doing something that u like with all your friends? Well..that was seemingly coming true until today. Something that i have planned for so long.. so damm long.. something that i was so looking forward to from all the unhappiness that i have been containing in myself. Its just going to just disappear. I'm fucking upset totally fucking upset! I cant concentrate on my revision, i cant smile as if i have no worries in the world. I'm sorry blog. I didnt meant for you to be my outlet but it just so seems that i have no one to turn to. I dont wanna have my friends be sick of me..i'm just so afraid of that..how is it that my confidence in myself and friends have reached so such a low poinT? i dont understand..i really do not understand.. these few weeks, i really feel like crying out loud but somehow..it just cant ... i hate bottling up all these feelings in me.. i really hate it...
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