around the world in 80 days

Monday, April 30, 2007

To those whom I have confided in these past few weeks/months, I believe you know that I'm feeling lost. My route is already set, ORD followed by my first year in Aus doing my Dip in Airline Transport Pilot and followed by a degree in Aeronautical Engineering. Recently, there's been a very big issue regarding SIA Pilots and the A380 superjumbo jet. Apparently pilots assigned to the A380 are only paid as high as a B777 which is strange considering how much bigger the A380s are. Anyway the main point is, the pilots wages were actually revealed on the straits times and an average pilot can get to earn up to 250,000 per annual! Thats god damm alot of money. But somehow I wasnt really happy. Strange huh?

Up to now, I'm actually still wondering what was it that i did wrong in my past relationships.Its not like I didnt put in the effort or I totally neglected them.. up to now i'm clueless. I no longer have the confidence to actually commit and able to say that, things will work out fine eventually cos it has never did. With the past few months, i've been looking for different things to divert my attention, playing guitar, fishing , learning how to dive and even clubbing. But in the end, it doesnt seem to help at all. I'm just prolonging this pain that i have. Even though , i do have someone in mind now , I dont dare to venture any where further than just friends. I'm enjoying the company, the laugher , the joy and i guess that is something i do not wish to lose.

I rrealise that i'm not making any sense. nvm...

I'm useless at relationships

around the world in 80 days
[2:27 AM]

me

LikeZ

ComMs

FriendZ

whatever

the good ol' days...

Tuning to

thanks

Monday, April 30, 2007