around the world in 80 days

Saturday, April 01, 2006

THe world is cruel, men are selfish. I cant believe that my N coy OC was so right. Well its true. what can i say? Currently i feel like history is repeating all over itself. The time where BX came into my love life.. its happening all over again. ANd the worst thing, i feel like the result will end up the same as well. With me throwing the white flag. Am i so useless? Yes i am. Do i suck. Yes i do. My tunnel of light is getting darker... and darker.. the white light that seemed so near has now become something that seems un-reachble. I feel like going into hiding, away from all these emotions. Can i turn back time and then freeze it to where i liked it the most? the 3rd of december 2005? CAn i? can I?

i cant.. time goes on without stopping, leaving me behind in a world thats no longer there. In a world which i yearn so badly. I wish to be alone yet i seek the attention of only the one, that one. i dont know.. i'm lost , i'm drowning in this sea of pain.

Living day by day,
sadness is today.
others to gloat,
i dont care.
happiness aside,
pain's inside.
everything's history,
its a sad story.

once again i'm not making sense.

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around the world in 80 days
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the good ol' days...

Tuning to

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Saturday, April 01, 2006