Sunday, September 25, 2005
Its amazing how time flies. 3 days have passed and here i go, abt to book in ADA Camp in Chong Pang. Its a pretty sad thing when i compare myself to my other friends in the other vocations in air force. Imagine to be able to book out on a daily basis but the only bad point would be that they might recall u back at any time of the day. I'm not too sure on how the rest would treat this, but i definately wouldnt mind it. hahaha.
Anyway these few days were really quite fufilling. Had squash on both friday night and saturday morning. Then on both fri and sat, i had both Denise and Huijie respectively to try my Ice Cream Oreo Ice Cream Cheese Cake with banana. And they both said that it was great! haha. Oh Huijie managed to try it cos it so happened that i was taking a bus home from squash on sat and saw her boarding it at NP. So suggested her to come try my cake. Oh! New suggestion from Denise. Strawberry? Sounds good! Will try it the nxt time when i'm baking the cake with Karen and her friend MAggie? Oh , i actually had alvin to try the cake today. But he didnt really have a good opinion on it. Oh well, everybody has their own preferences right? HOpefully the guys would enjoy the cake on Mekko's bday on tues. HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAO MEI! in advance that is. =)
Speaking of Karen, Yt had actually asked me a very funny question one day. She actually asked me if i like karen, I was like -___-???. I was pretty stunned. And if i didnt remember wrongly, its because she felt that i was very close to Karen. But i guess the reason why i'm suddenly so nice and chatty to Karen is because there's no longer anybody's feelings that i have to concern myself with. And basically that is how i'm treating all my other friends as well. Oh with regards to YT. I really dont know what to say. I admit i do admire her matureness towards certain things but one thing that i cannot stand is her drawing such a clear line between feiends and not a friend. ALl this while, whether i was with Ht or not, i've always treated her as a friend but i guess it wasnt to her, at least her use of langauge didnt reflect it.
Oh on friday night, i had actually had supper with my cousin Christy at Abi's place. The food was gd as usual and surprisingly crowded as well. It was a pretty nice time then as between both of us, it has been a very very long since we were actually out together for anything. Hopefully there would be more outings like that, maybe more happening ones? hahaha.
Saw Edwin too. On sat night for supper. Nothing much abt it but one thing is for sure. He has grown darker and FATTER! lol.
Oh, i cant wait for nxt month to come where i can meet up with the ninja4section2 guys. Miss those guys man! the guys whom went through all the shit together. haha. Miss taking to Neo and Izwan too. I'm also looking forward for nxt month too as my allowance would be in and then alvin and i can go shopping for clothes. Actually i saw a pretty nice t shirt today at army market but i was really broke.. sad. Its this brown t shirt and a girl in bikini at the side of it. The bikini says no looking for the top, and no touching for the bottom. Pretty crude but pretty nice. haha.
Anyway i have been reading Ht's blogs recently and i guess its really about time for me to move on. She's happy with her life, with her new bf and his family. So what is there for me to be upset or worried abt right?The things that she mentioned in her blog. Alittle crude for me to read but expected, nonetheless she does sound like she has matured a fair bit. Strange isnt it? The both times ZM, entered her life, she matured. Anyway its a good thing la. I'm happy for both of them =)
Oh, on a more decisive note. I've kinda decided to not get a gf ( not that anybody would really like me for who i am anyway) until i go overseas or something. Because right now, not only do i not have any time for the person but also what will happen when i go overseas to study. I dont wish to break anybody's heart again and mine as well. So i guess this is the best for me. Besides i'm very happy being able to know more friends. Right now, i just want to be close to all my friends again and from there slowly get to know more friends , so on and so forth. I guess i really have to change myself to be more socialising, to be more like ZHong. Zhong is really someone that i inspire to be at times like this.
In 10 hours or so, i would be officially in ADA camp. Right now, i'm missing the times i had with da ge and friends in AFS, talking abt girls and all the other stuffs. SLeeping at every available break, eating chicken cutlet at AF1. haha I'm going to miss him sia! And i'm hoping that Fu yong would be my buddy in camp. It would be nice to have him around sia. Though most likely he wont be able to replace my buds Kelvin and Alvin but definately there's room for more buds! hahaha.
Ok, its getting pretty late so its lights out for me!
Friends and more friends!
Friends Forever!
around the world in 80 days
[10:56 PM]
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Its just another 4 more days before i'll be attached to Chong Pang Camp for the xiong-est Air force training. What to do, i'm a ADWO , Air Defense Weapon Operator. Life in AFS has been extremely boring , so much so that i'm practically going to the school to sleep and also fighting an ongoing battle with the Z monster whenever there's a lecture. But i'm appreciating it, cos at least i know that i wont be able to experience that from nxt week onwards, nor would i be able to go home everyday like what i'm doing now. Just 4 more days. How short is that?
Anyway for all the recruits out there, if u do not know what does welfare mean to you in bmt. Pls pray that you'll be posted to hawke company sch1. How would i know? It happens so that one of my friends was posted to Hawke. And on the first day at AFS, he was saying that the sergeant in charge of us was already considered very xiong in Hawke. I was almost in the state of shock. I mean like all Sergeant Alex did was to shout at us so that we get into position thats it, and thats already considered xiong? haha. After that he was telling us about his experience in Hawke and honestly i have already reserved both my middle finger and shoulder for him. Why the middle finger and shoulder you would ask? hahaha
Middle finger - Is because his training was so slack that its unbelievable
Shoulder - To lend him a shoulder to cry on when the training at ADA gets too tough.
Just incase you were wondering how tough the training at ADA could get, well. The personnel in there are all expected to pull at least 20 chin ups by the end of the training course, not to mention to achieve a IPPT silver at the end of the day as well. Haha. Honestly for me, i do not really mind having such vigourous training but what makes me upset is the fact that we have to stay in both during training and after we complete it. How sad can that be? Compared to all the other vocations, we are the only ones who wear no4 on a daily basis, using camo creams and stay in. Oh well.. besides that, there's one thing at least i hope i can achieve and be happy about and thats getting a better body after going through all of that training.
Anyway i'm quite happy today as she talked to me pretty well. I guess i shall not say anything silly to her for the time being.
PS: My sergeant got knocked it down by a Master today. Interesting sight.
around the world in 80 days
[8:05 PM]
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
Was reading Tuesday with Morrie for the second time. Although the story did not touched me as much as it did before but i believe i understood its meanings more than before. A quote that i took from the book, " When u learn how to die, you'll learn how to live." I guess this is where my own quote comes in, " Through sadness is where i learnt happiness."
I've been reflecting through my actions regarding the past 3 months and i've came to realised how foolish i was, how stubborn i could get. Both Zhong and Sm gave me very gd advices that i refuse to heed. More like i knew they were right yet i didnt want to change; hence rotting myself away, throwing away the happy carefree side that i had. The worst was to actually shift all the blame onto ht for restricting my life for the 3 yrs that we had together. Its not until now then i realised that all of these problems were actually the cause of my indecsivness and unwillingness to stand up for what i really want. Close friends that i had, Jiahui, Ade and Huijuan are either long gone or we arent close anymore. All this while i had actually blamed that on Ht. But it wasnt even her fault, it was me who didnt want to agrue with her, who placed relationship above that of friendship and also for developing admiring feelings for them as i had really wished for Ht to be as understanding as they were. That also meant that i was comparing ht to them which isnt something that i should have done. I guess i'm just not cut out to be a good boyfriend and friend. But like the sayings go, "Failure is the mother of all sucess" & " What doesnt kill you, makes you stronger." I want to learn from what has happened and be a much better man.
Regrets in life? haha i do have a few and would like to elaborate on 1 of them.
1) Flying. That was something that i shouldnt have left it up to Heng/Suay. Really, thinking back on it, i was really stupid to have done that. Learning proceedures A and not B, so that i can leave it up to "Heaven" to decide forme whether it was better for me to continue with Flying or Squash + Ht. Big time stupid.
Thankful? Alot alot. I have to admit that i havent been a very good friend to all my best buds out there but thanks to all whom have helped me over those shadowed times.To all of you, i really owe u guys alot.
1) Shaomin
2) Joseph
3) Nick
4) Edwin
5) Jillian
6) Zhong
7) Liza
8) Wanyu
9) Neo
10) Alvin
11) Izwan
12) Kenneah Ho
13) Kelvin aka Hamster
14) Sgt Sebas
To an extra person whom i didnt list above, Thank huijuan for being there for me during the Boxing incident, although i admit i said something that i shouldnt have said then but i hope that thats already considered bygones? =)
Take care folks, its time for bed.
around the world in 80 days
[9:43 PM]
Monday, September 19, 2005
Starting a brand new life.
around the world in 80 days
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